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Who am I?

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That's quite a loaded question when you have spent the last 3 years of your life locked away inside an eating disorder. You become the eating disorder, or rather the eating disorder becomes you, taking over your body and using its shell as a host to all its sick wants and needs. And you lose yourself along the way. I remember one of my vey first sessions in treatment my therapist asked me "What would you do if you had a whole day to yourself with no responsibilities?" and I couldn't answer that. I had no idea what I liked to do. I knew what the eating disorder would do- work out, be productive, and skip meals. But what would Lex do? And that's what I've been trying to figure out on my journey through recovery. My therapist suggested making a list of things I like, that make me happy. If you're struggling in this place, I suggest you do the same. So I will share that list with you, and hopefully keep adding to it, so we can both get to know Lex a little better.